Devilish

well, school released early to massive amounts of snowfall and very cold temperatures. i think i'll take a nap today. i need to study for finals. play auditions keep getting moved. i'm tired of always being stuck at home. i'm going to go write, i think, i'll edit this post and add the new stuff later (:


jettison, the act of throwing goods overboard when a craft is in distress; also, the goods thrown overboard OR to throw away or discard.

ie; Alexis decided to jettison the pictures when she realized that things won't be that way ever again.



DEVILISH

Seeing you with her
felt much like my own funeral,
the barrel to my back,
your finger on the trigger

It's not the worst ending for this scenario,
no, I'd want to be the first to go,
I'm watching you jump from this ledge,
you never risked this much for me

Seeing you struggle makes me feel this much worse,
Did I wish this upon you?
the barrel to your back,
my finger's on the trigger

It's almost devilish how I feel,
there is not regret in this spinning wheel,
these emotions are always changing,
love you, hate you,
can you please stop straining your words?

It's not the worst ending for this scenario,
you know I want to be the first to go,
I'm watching you fall from this ledge,
you've risked too much,
too much for her

my eyes are heavy with thoughts of you,
falling so fast,
things would have been different if you
weren't just my past,
these emotions are always changing,
you were never really straining

jealousy's teeth are tearing at my flesh,
I hear it's the deadliest of seven,
it's the worst ending for this scenario,
and now, I'm the last to go.